Intro

I have had a good life..until recently everything has been easy on the life scale. When i was 10 my parents divorced. I was grateful because i hate my father. My mother remarried shorty after to the man i now call dad or rusty. I have a little sister,18, Maureen she is my blood sister. I also have a little brother, 15, Ryan. who is Rusty's child.
I have never been the brightest person. Everything i do i have to work extremely hard nothing has ever came easy to me. In 5th grade i was put into special edd, but was never really diagnosed with a learning disability. I was in special edd until i graduated from high school. Now that im in college i have extra help and special help. Now im not going to school anymore i failed most of my classes even though i tryed like hell to pass.
The entire time i went to school my dad would compare me to my sister and say " why cant you get good grades like your sister." At that time my mother was my rock and she would always go to bat for me and make me feel better. Seeing how smart my little sister is has always been very hard on me. I have never understood why i am the stupid one and she is so smart. Its been hard on me.
I have always tryed to fit in, however nothing ever feel just right to me. School was rough because i was socially different. growing up i was home school and shuffled around a lot because my father could never hold down a job for very long. Fitting in just never really happened for me. yes i did have people to hang out with but i never felt like i truly fit in.
My father and Rusty were both in the marine corps. So growing up was different. My father was retired but still stick on my sister and me. When my mother remarried rusty he was still in the marines. He deployed twice to the war in Iraq after 9/11 then he got out. We have always had marines over at our house every weekend.
Well thats all i can think of for today. so until next time...enjoy life.