here again

I am still rather lonely. It has been since July i last blogged. I started seeing someone about two weeks ago i think. i think it has been longer but he thinks its been two weeks. the truth is i have liked this guy. i just didn't get with him cause i was lost at the time i had the chance. but now we are together. he seems kinda perfect so far. yes he has some skeletons in the closet he is not so proud of but now days who doesn't. he is tall beautiful eyes amazzing personality family oriented respectful. everything i could wish for. but my problem is that i have been so lonely before him that i think i am pushing him away. i know im pushing him away. im being that girl friend that guys bitch about to their friends and i so hate myself for it. i think i need to do something to keep me more busy. i need advice. if anyone even reads this. =/